It's funny. I am near the end on two of my UFOs: the Breeze Socks and Rusted Root. Now, all I can think about is just getting...them...done. I woke up at 8am for the sole purpose of working on them both today. Great. Fine. Good. That's wonderful.
But what about your wedding stole? OK...tomorrow is September 1st. I'm not even halfway finished. I'm still planning on working on the thing, I'm just not planning on getting my hopes up. The possibility that it will not be finished in time is not one that is nagging on me, but it is certainly the most probable of all the possibilities regarding the subject. It's OK. I knew when I started it that it most likely wasn't going to happen. No harm, no foul. I can just find a nice wrap of sorts the new-fashioned way: buy it at the store.
It is quite pretty, though, and I will finish it. I will continue to work on it up until the day, but that day is no longer a deadline. If it isn't done in time for my wedding, I will trudge onward and wrap this luscious draping fabric around myself throughout the fall and winter seasons. Again, no harm, no foul.
On the personal front, I have finally decided that I can no longer put off going in for an eye exam. My contact lenses have been driving me absolutely insane. I can hardly get through the day without them feeling all dry. I have glasses, but because I am headache prone and they are thick, black, and heavy (not to mention all bent out of shape), I do not like to wear them when I'm out and about. I need glasses that I can wear out in public for prolonged periods of time. I need to give my eyes a break because they are yelling at me to do so! This really sucks too because I now have to spend my money on it, but I've decided to not be a princess about the whole thing. The exam is free, I'll choose cheap lightweight frames. This is my resolve. I only hope that the fancy lenses I need (because they are light and thin...really bad eyes here, I don't want goggles) aren't incredibly expensive. We shall see. Wish me luck...I'm sort of nervous. I hate going to doctor's offices.
31.8.07
30.8.07
For myself
Something I need to keep in mind when I'm feeling overwhelmed is: I will have time. I keep trying to hurry my life along as though I were dying tomorrow and in some kind of rush to establish a legacy. I've said this before, but I need to simplify my life. I realize that it seems like I don't do much with my time. I only work at Starbucks (not for long) and knit the rest of the day, but my life is too complex. It's the emotion of complexity that I need to sort of tame a little bit and if I can't tame that emotion, I'll probably never learn anything about myself.
I need to relearn who it is that I am, who it is that I want to be. For the past few weeks, I've been thinking about it...and I've jokingly said "I feel my artistic spirit has died." I laughed, smiled, and acted as though I were only being dramatic. But it was true.
Did you know that in high school, all I did was create art and write? If I didn't, I would feel uncomfortable and unhappy. I was an artist; I was a writer. So, what happened? It can't possibly be that I am not anymore...can it? If there was a time in my life when my art defined me, when I was full of ideas and creativity, how is it possible that I have become what I am today? To answer your question, I am a too stressed to breathe, too scared to move, too stupid to care twenty-something. This is not Jessica; this is a fake. I see you there, taking over. I know what you're up to. I don't know how I became so weak to just allow you to do this to me. I can't believe how close I have come to letting this world get the best of me. No more. The take no prisoners, no nonsense, and no criticism child is back. Nice to meet you.
It might be hard and it might be scary. I may not buy as much yarn. I might never F an O again. It doesn't really matter, as long as I'm doing something I love and am not allowing myself to be abused anymore, by myself or anyone else for that matter.
So, what does this mean? Probably nothing to anyone reading this. It's an inside of Jessica kind of change that will, for the most part, go unnoticed except for the part in the film where I'm happy without any kind of doubt behind it. Things like that might become obvious.
Oh, I don't know what I'm saying anymore. I just needed to write this, you know? I'm in the midst of some serious changes and I'm scared to death. Luckily I have people who love me and support me...even if it isn't in the way I would sometimes like them to.
Sheesh...please, go back to your knitting. I'll go back to mine. All will be as it is, no questions, no shame.
I need to relearn who it is that I am, who it is that I want to be. For the past few weeks, I've been thinking about it...and I've jokingly said "I feel my artistic spirit has died." I laughed, smiled, and acted as though I were only being dramatic. But it was true.
Did you know that in high school, all I did was create art and write? If I didn't, I would feel uncomfortable and unhappy. I was an artist; I was a writer. So, what happened? It can't possibly be that I am not anymore...can it? If there was a time in my life when my art defined me, when I was full of ideas and creativity, how is it possible that I have become what I am today? To answer your question, I am a too stressed to breathe, too scared to move, too stupid to care twenty-something. This is not Jessica; this is a fake. I see you there, taking over. I know what you're up to. I don't know how I became so weak to just allow you to do this to me. I can't believe how close I have come to letting this world get the best of me. No more. The take no prisoners, no nonsense, and no criticism child is back. Nice to meet you.
It might be hard and it might be scary. I may not buy as much yarn. I might never F an O again. It doesn't really matter, as long as I'm doing something I love and am not allowing myself to be abused anymore, by myself or anyone else for that matter.
So, what does this mean? Probably nothing to anyone reading this. It's an inside of Jessica kind of change that will, for the most part, go unnoticed except for the part in the film where I'm happy without any kind of doubt behind it. Things like that might become obvious.
Oh, I don't know what I'm saying anymore. I just needed to write this, you know? I'm in the midst of some serious changes and I'm scared to death. Luckily I have people who love me and support me...even if it isn't in the way I would sometimes like them to.
Sheesh...please, go back to your knitting. I'll go back to mine. All will be as it is, no questions, no shame.
27.8.07
Wish to Knit
...but must finish the last of those pesky invitations! Damn, I'm behind...but my friends know when it is, for the most part.
...but I really wish to knit...really, really, really...
****Added later****
Well, I've finished...and they will be put off in the mail this afternoon. Now, I plan to take a shower and knit until 11:40 (which is NOT much time...tear)
...but I really wish to knit...really, really, really...
****Added later****
Well, I've finished...and they will be put off in the mail this afternoon. Now, I plan to take a shower and knit until 11:40 (which is NOT much time...tear)
26.8.07
T. O. Let's Go! (I mean...with an E at the end...)
My Breeze socks will be finishing themselves soon enough. I'm at the toe now, and I'm actually pretty excited to work it. There is a continuation of the pattern onto the toe, which I've never done before. Yay for new things! Not that it will be difficult or anything...
Oh, stole...please...pretty, pretty please...knit yourself by my wedding day. Yes, it is slow moving. I know I said I'd work on solely the stole for awhile, but I am only human. There is only so much stole I can handle at a time. Maybe it's the pressure...
On the Rusted Root front, I have started to work the ribbing around the bottom edge of the sweater. I've been reading EZ's Knitting Without Tears on the sidelines, and have decided to use twisted knit stitches in the ribbing. I chose (at the suggestion of a wise ravelry-ite) to NOT go down a needle size as the pattern specifies. Apparently, some people have found it to be too tight. I knit very tightly, so I didn't want to take any chances. However, I didn't feel completely comfortable with the idea. So, EZ saves the day. It will naturally be a bit tighter than the rest of the garment due to the twisted stitches, but maybe not as horribly tight as it would be if I had gone down a needle size. Get it? We shall see.
Oh, and the twisted stitches make for a nice effect in the ribbing and really set it off from the rest of the garment:
See?
I got my yarn from Knit Picks for the two hats I'll be starting as projects leave my needles. I'll start Max's We Call Them Pirates hat first, because he deserves it (every 7 projects I cast on for myself, I only cast on half of one for him...see Gentleman's Fancy Sock...half finished pair of socks....boo). I love him, I should knit for him.
I have some serious, big news...but I'm not ready to talk about it yet...
22.8.07
Verly Interlesting
So, I was reading a thread on Ravelry about Rusted Root. One girl said that one shouldn't switch to smaller needles for the ribbing and edges because a lot of people have found it to be too tight around the arm and neck holes.
Super tight knitter, here. Point well taken.
Since I sort of don't plan on sleeping tonight, I think it is going to be a knitting marathon tonight. I know that I said I would only work on Estonian Garden when I'm at home, but I'm only human. Besides, the more I think about it the less I believe it will actually be finished in time.
That isn't to say that I shouldn't keep going. I'm seven repeats in on this section. That means I have 34 more repeats to go (for a total of 41) until the next section. Then, I undo my provisional cast-on and do the same thing for the other side. So, really, I've not made much progress. And, really, my wedding is September 29th. I'm not giving up yet, though!! I will work on this thing right up until the night before, if I have to!!!! I think I'll probably take out a few repeats, maybe a total of 30 instead of 40. I'll just see how long it looks when I get to that point and decide then if I want to knit further.
But since tonight is so empty and I don't have to wake up at any particular time tomorrow morning, I can work on more than one thing tonight. Although, I DO need to make time to watch Arsenic and Old Lace. God, I love that movie...and no, I don't love it because of the knitting reference in the title even though I now realize the hilarity and the appropriateness of it now.
Speaking of old movies, I love them. What happened to that nice, light-hearted energy that used to exist in film? Granted, I love me a great dark as night comedy bordering on depressing, but I also appreciate the simplicity of films like Harvey. Man, is Harvey good! I guess what I'm saying is, this world is too difficult and that difficulty is definitely being transferred over to film and even music too. Not to say that the masterpieces of great composers and filmmakers were not complex. Difficulty and complexity are two different things and I'll go out on a limb and say that one is certainly better than the other.
I'm cutting in on my knitting marathon time, here. So, I'll bring it to a close. What are your thoughts?
Super tight knitter, here. Point well taken.
Since I sort of don't plan on sleeping tonight, I think it is going to be a knitting marathon tonight. I know that I said I would only work on Estonian Garden when I'm at home, but I'm only human. Besides, the more I think about it the less I believe it will actually be finished in time.
That isn't to say that I shouldn't keep going. I'm seven repeats in on this section. That means I have 34 more repeats to go (for a total of 41) until the next section. Then, I undo my provisional cast-on and do the same thing for the other side. So, really, I've not made much progress. And, really, my wedding is September 29th. I'm not giving up yet, though!! I will work on this thing right up until the night before, if I have to!!!! I think I'll probably take out a few repeats, maybe a total of 30 instead of 40. I'll just see how long it looks when I get to that point and decide then if I want to knit further.
But since tonight is so empty and I don't have to wake up at any particular time tomorrow morning, I can work on more than one thing tonight. Although, I DO need to make time to watch Arsenic and Old Lace. God, I love that movie...and no, I don't love it because of the knitting reference in the title even though I now realize the hilarity and the appropriateness of it now.
Speaking of old movies, I love them. What happened to that nice, light-hearted energy that used to exist in film? Granted, I love me a great dark as night comedy bordering on depressing, but I also appreciate the simplicity of films like Harvey. Man, is Harvey good! I guess what I'm saying is, this world is too difficult and that difficulty is definitely being transferred over to film and even music too. Not to say that the masterpieces of great composers and filmmakers were not complex. Difficulty and complexity are two different things and I'll go out on a limb and say that one is certainly better than the other.
I'm cutting in on my knitting marathon time, here. So, I'll bring it to a close. What are your thoughts?
20.8.07
My decision
Since I haven't really had much time on the weekends to work on Estonian Garden, I have decided to make it my all-the-time project. Meaning, when I am at home and not feeling incredibly distracted, I will work on it...everyday...
That being said, I am often not at home. When I am out and about (at work, waiting at a restaurant, etc...), I will work on my other projects.
Rusted Root is on hold until I feel like going to the LYS and buying a needle. So, the only other projects I really have going right now are two pairs of socks and the Lace Blouse. These will be the projects I keep in my purse.
I'm sort of bummed about this decision, though, because I feel like my little schedule was working. Oh, well. I'm afraid if i don't do this, Estonian Garden won't be done in time!! Today is August 20th and my wedding is September 29th!
Yikes!
That being said, I am often not at home. When I am out and about (at work, waiting at a restaurant, etc...), I will work on my other projects.
Rusted Root is on hold until I feel like going to the LYS and buying a needle. So, the only other projects I really have going right now are two pairs of socks and the Lace Blouse. These will be the projects I keep in my purse.
I'm sort of bummed about this decision, though, because I feel like my little schedule was working. Oh, well. I'm afraid if i don't do this, Estonian Garden won't be done in time!! Today is August 20th and my wedding is September 29th!
Yikes!
16.8.07
I'm like a crazy person
I keep adding things to my queue in Ravelry. It is now three pages long!!
AND I've only added ONE pattern from the most recent issues of Interweave and Vogue Knitting. Just today, I've added the We Call Them Pirates Hat, Pirate Mittens, Anemoi Mittens, Endpaper Mitts, and the Squirrel and Oak Mittens!
I ordered part of the yarn for the Pirates Hat, before I realized there were mittens to match! I also went ahead and got yarn for another hat in my queue (this one's for me), the Inga Hat. PS...I've never really done colorwork before. I'm NUTS!!!! Let's hope I looooove colorwork, because I'm signing myself up for disaster if I don't!!!!
But I really love knitpicks...it all cost me about 11 bucks!!
Are any of "you" color/fair-isle knitters?? If so, do you have any tips, or suggestions (blog, book, tutorial recommendations??)? I would appreciate it!!!!
AND I've only added ONE pattern from the most recent issues of Interweave and Vogue Knitting. Just today, I've added the We Call Them Pirates Hat, Pirate Mittens, Anemoi Mittens, Endpaper Mitts, and the Squirrel and Oak Mittens!
I ordered part of the yarn for the Pirates Hat, before I realized there were mittens to match! I also went ahead and got yarn for another hat in my queue (this one's for me), the Inga Hat. PS...I've never really done colorwork before. I'm NUTS!!!! Let's hope I looooove colorwork, because I'm signing myself up for disaster if I don't!!!!
But I really love knitpicks...it all cost me about 11 bucks!!
Are any of "you" color/fair-isle knitters?? If so, do you have any tips, or suggestions (blog, book, tutorial recommendations??)? I would appreciate it!!!!
14.8.07
A good little wifey
Yes, I am going to be a good little wifey...because I am going to be the little wifey who knits her husband (prisoner) complete pairs of hand-knit socks. Not just one sock, but two...one for each foot.
Even if it takes me a lifetime to finish, that second sock has been started. There is no excuse now. That yucky casting on part is over with.
Yes, I hate casting on. I do not love starting new projects; I love working on new projects, once those stitches have been cast on and a few rows worked for good measure. Speaking of:
The good little wifey has made visible progress on her wedding stole! I can already see the pattern taking shape and now that I've worked a complete pattern repeat, I feel comfortable with it.
About that schedule thing I started a while ago: I am actually doing a (pretty) good job of following it. I have made tons of progress on Rusted Root, finished my pair of Child's First Socks in shell pattern, started the fronts of the purple lace blouse (although, I did not have time last Thursday to work on it), started Max's second sock, and have a relatively solid start on my wedding stole.
Drawbacks: each day is devoted to a knitting project, which is good, but I am also trying to learn to spin AND needle felt AND sew AND (which I keep forgetting about) I also want to work on some more Temari at some point. While I am excited about all of my knitting progress, I can see my progress on these other arts being compromised. I think I may need to change things a bit in order to include all of my random craftsman needs. But there are only so many days in a week...I'll figure it out, though...don't worry.
What? You wanna see my progress on Rusted Root? Ok, fine:
I feel like the end of this sweater is in sight, which is making me a leetle excited. I love FOs and I don't seem to get very many, what with all my psychotic starting of projects and all.
Even if it takes me a lifetime to finish, that second sock has been started. There is no excuse now. That yucky casting on part is over with.
Yes, I hate casting on. I do not love starting new projects; I love working on new projects, once those stitches have been cast on and a few rows worked for good measure. Speaking of:
The good little wifey has made visible progress on her wedding stole! I can already see the pattern taking shape and now that I've worked a complete pattern repeat, I feel comfortable with it.
About that schedule thing I started a while ago: I am actually doing a (pretty) good job of following it. I have made tons of progress on Rusted Root, finished my pair of Child's First Socks in shell pattern, started the fronts of the purple lace blouse (although, I did not have time last Thursday to work on it), started Max's second sock, and have a relatively solid start on my wedding stole.
Drawbacks: each day is devoted to a knitting project, which is good, but I am also trying to learn to spin AND needle felt AND sew AND (which I keep forgetting about) I also want to work on some more Temari at some point. While I am excited about all of my knitting progress, I can see my progress on these other arts being compromised. I think I may need to change things a bit in order to include all of my random craftsman needs. But there are only so many days in a week...I'll figure it out, though...don't worry.
What? You wanna see my progress on Rusted Root? Ok, fine:
I feel like the end of this sweater is in sight, which is making me a leetle excited. I love FOs and I don't seem to get very many, what with all my psychotic starting of projects and all.
10.8.07
FO: Child's First Sock in Shell Pattern
That's right...a REAL FO!! This a genuine, bonafide, splendiferous, great-ish, ACTUAL PAIR of socks!!
I started these waaaaay back in April, can you believe that? Talk about takin' my time, but it was all worth it. They are so much fun. I'm DEFINITELY wearing them to the Lisle French Market and Stitches Midwest tomorrow!!
A few notes. I LOVE this pattern...no real complaints there. Of course, these are not without flaw, by any means...but they are HANDMADE, you know? So, I can deal with it. First thing: I knit the first sock on aluminum Susan Bates DPN's...and it was a bit small. Then, for the second sock, I decided I wanted to try the two circular method (which I am now in love with, btw). The second sock is not as tight, which is a good thing, but it sort of bothers me that the gauge is different on them. Again, handmade, wonderful color, wonderful pattern...it doesn't really bother me too much. The second thing is my kitchener stitch toe on the second sock is not as "attractive" as that of the second sock. I think I actually messed it up somewhere along the way, but I'm not sure where. Oh well, I don't think it's too noticeable. Again, handmade, wonderful color, wonderful pattern, IT DOESN'T REALLY BOTHER ME.
I am happy!
6.8.07
Ye Olde Faire!
The whole of Saturday was spent at the Renaissance Faire!!
Tyler was not happy with us for subjecting him to this photo-op!! Get over it!! Madame Crazy and her happy banana "loves a redhead."
That's the group...doing that whole group posing thing.
Max and Jim ate turkey legs...like real men. Oh, and by the way, NEITHER OF THEM FINISHED!! How's that for masculinity? hehehee...
Jim and Kate...and Leggie.
Andrew and I...and Leggie.
Max and I at the Joust. Whatever happened to awesome spectacles like jousts?? I mean seriously, it's totally different from sporting events today...
The faire was a great time with our friends and I was really excited about it!
I took a sock with me...My Child's First Sock in Shell Pattern. I am on the foot and it is getting really close to being finished, finito! I can't wait to finish my first real pair of socks...my fingers are itching to work on more.
But today I am to work on my Rusted Root. Socks are a tomorrow thing, as much as I might want to work on them today.
On Sunday, I got a haircut:
Went to the flea market...bought a cute bike with a fantastic wicker basket for 42 bucks:
Went to Max's parents house to find that they had left for Indiana...stayed a while to hang with Max's brother for a bit...and came home to watch a BBC documentary hosted by the one and only Michio Kaku. I think there's a part two...we have to catch it!
And even though my weekend was pretty full, I still managed to cast on for my wedding shawl! I didn't get very far though:
Oh, and stitches is TOTALLY next weekend...which means it doesn't fall on a payday weekend...which means...well...you know what it means. I'll still go, but I probably won't buy much. One ("one," that's funny) thing that I want to be sure to find is needle felting supplies and fiber for needle felting with. I have a few ideas for some things to make for my etsy shoppe (I'll spell it that way for a while, OK? ^.^). I almost bought all the supplies I needed at RenFaire, but ultimately decided not to do it. Of course, in the car the first thing I said was "you know when I get home I'll be scouring the interwebs for the stuff I decided not to buy today." It's a sickness...I'm a hobby-aholic.
Tyler was not happy with us for subjecting him to this photo-op!! Get over it!! Madame Crazy and her happy banana "loves a redhead."
That's the group...doing that whole group posing thing.
Max and Jim ate turkey legs...like real men. Oh, and by the way, NEITHER OF THEM FINISHED!! How's that for masculinity? hehehee...
Jim and Kate...and Leggie.
Andrew and I...and Leggie.
Max and I at the Joust. Whatever happened to awesome spectacles like jousts?? I mean seriously, it's totally different from sporting events today...
The faire was a great time with our friends and I was really excited about it!
I took a sock with me...My Child's First Sock in Shell Pattern. I am on the foot and it is getting really close to being finished, finito! I can't wait to finish my first real pair of socks...my fingers are itching to work on more.
But today I am to work on my Rusted Root. Socks are a tomorrow thing, as much as I might want to work on them today.
On Sunday, I got a haircut:
Went to the flea market...bought a cute bike with a fantastic wicker basket for 42 bucks:
Went to Max's parents house to find that they had left for Indiana...stayed a while to hang with Max's brother for a bit...and came home to watch a BBC documentary hosted by the one and only Michio Kaku. I think there's a part two...we have to catch it!
And even though my weekend was pretty full, I still managed to cast on for my wedding shawl! I didn't get very far though:
Oh, and stitches is TOTALLY next weekend...which means it doesn't fall on a payday weekend...which means...well...you know what it means. I'll still go, but I probably won't buy much. One ("one," that's funny) thing that I want to be sure to find is needle felting supplies and fiber for needle felting with. I have a few ideas for some things to make for my etsy shoppe (I'll spell it that way for a while, OK? ^.^). I almost bought all the supplies I needed at RenFaire, but ultimately decided not to do it. Of course, in the car the first thing I said was "you know when I get home I'll be scouring the interwebs for the stuff I decided not to buy today." It's a sickness...I'm a hobby-aholic.
2.8.07
I've done this before...
...but I'm going to try to do it again. I'm going to try to...wait for it, wait for it...hold myself to a schedule for knitting so that I can actually get some things done!
Here's the plan:
Mondays: Rusted Root
Tuesdays: Socks (any socks I choose)
Wednesdays: Rusted Root
Thursdays: Lace Blouse
Fridays: Socks (again, whichever I choose)
Saturdays and Sundays: WEDDING KNITTING!!!!
I chose to put wedding knitting on Saturday and Sunday b/c those are supposed to be the days where I will be the least stressed...since I am no longer available to work on the weekends now. Oh, and btw, my manager keeps trying to convince me to work a regular Saturday every week. Um...NO! I'm sorry, but NO! The wedding is too close and I may need to make a trip to the StL at the drop of a hat...so, I'm sorry, but NO!
Ehem...anyway. I am going to try to hold myself to this schedule at least for a little while. We all know that I am not very good at things like this...but I started this plan yesterday and so far, so good. I have FINALLY cast on for the fronts of the Purple Lace Blouse. Man, does that feel good!
Project Spectrum has changed on me! I didn't finish Rusted Root!! Crap, man! I know it's all just for fun, but I really wanted to finish something this time!! Grrr... But here's the good news: I LOVE ALL THE NEW PS COLORS!!!! I'm already knitting something Purple (the lace blouse) and I should get that done in a few weeks as long as I keep my schedule. I've got a pair of orange-y socks (Breeze) nearly done already!! And the third color is brown and, hel-lo?, I FREAKIN' LOVE BROWN!!!! As soon as the new Interweave comes out, it's the Cobblestone sweater for Maxim....IN BROWN, BABY! I just have to think about when, on what yarn, and how much money to spend for that one. I was planning on starting Jarrett for Max next, but I can't get that gorgeous garter yoke on the Cobblestone out of my mind. Plus, the color for Jarrett does not correspond to PS, not that that is the only reason I choose to knit things...obviously, it isn't.
Oh, and back to Project Spectrum, I have some eggplant purple silky wool just waiting to be turned into something pretty for my grandmother. I just need to find the right pattern for her. I am thinking I'd like to make her a stole b/c a triangle shawl might not be practical for her. I have three balls of the silky wool already stashed...any stole suggestions for my grandma-ma??
Now, let's talk about life. I still don't know what to do with mine. I am unhappy with my job and need an office job fast. I am unhappy with who I am and feel that I have really dug a hole for myself...and have wasted time...and have failed at adulthood (pretty much before it has even begun, I know). It's a really sucky feeling...and one you'd think I'd be used to by now b/c I have always sort of felt this way throughout my life. Why do I always feel like I am missing something or for some reason like I am not good enough?? Feeling this way really makes it hard to change things...hard indeed.
But that's depressing and I already have to think about going to work today, which is depressing enough. So, let's not drag this out any more.
I'm excited to make more progress on the Lace Blouse and I'm excited about starting my Wedding Stole this weekend. Oh, btw, I have ultimately chosen Estonian Garden!! It's super pretty!
Oh, I'm also a member of Librarything.com now. My username is littlejezzie. If you're a member, send me a message sometime! I'm hooked on it, but I still don't have all of my books up on it yet. I have a lot of books here, but I know I have more hidden away somewhere, probably in the StL.
Sigh, I need to read more. I need to write more. Stupid knitting takes up all of my time. lol ^.^
Here's the plan:
Mondays: Rusted Root
Tuesdays: Socks (any socks I choose)
Wednesdays: Rusted Root
Thursdays: Lace Blouse
Fridays: Socks (again, whichever I choose)
Saturdays and Sundays: WEDDING KNITTING!!!!
I chose to put wedding knitting on Saturday and Sunday b/c those are supposed to be the days where I will be the least stressed...since I am no longer available to work on the weekends now. Oh, and btw, my manager keeps trying to convince me to work a regular Saturday every week. Um...NO! I'm sorry, but NO! The wedding is too close and I may need to make a trip to the StL at the drop of a hat...so, I'm sorry, but NO!
Ehem...anyway. I am going to try to hold myself to this schedule at least for a little while. We all know that I am not very good at things like this...but I started this plan yesterday and so far, so good. I have FINALLY cast on for the fronts of the Purple Lace Blouse. Man, does that feel good!
Project Spectrum has changed on me! I didn't finish Rusted Root!! Crap, man! I know it's all just for fun, but I really wanted to finish something this time!! Grrr... But here's the good news: I LOVE ALL THE NEW PS COLORS!!!! I'm already knitting something Purple (the lace blouse) and I should get that done in a few weeks as long as I keep my schedule. I've got a pair of orange-y socks (Breeze) nearly done already!! And the third color is brown and, hel-lo?, I FREAKIN' LOVE BROWN!!!! As soon as the new Interweave comes out, it's the Cobblestone sweater for Maxim....IN BROWN, BABY! I just have to think about when, on what yarn, and how much money to spend for that one. I was planning on starting Jarrett for Max next, but I can't get that gorgeous garter yoke on the Cobblestone out of my mind. Plus, the color for Jarrett does not correspond to PS, not that that is the only reason I choose to knit things...obviously, it isn't.
Oh, and back to Project Spectrum, I have some eggplant purple silky wool just waiting to be turned into something pretty for my grandmother. I just need to find the right pattern for her. I am thinking I'd like to make her a stole b/c a triangle shawl might not be practical for her. I have three balls of the silky wool already stashed...any stole suggestions for my grandma-ma??
Now, let's talk about life. I still don't know what to do with mine. I am unhappy with my job and need an office job fast. I am unhappy with who I am and feel that I have really dug a hole for myself...and have wasted time...and have failed at adulthood (pretty much before it has even begun, I know). It's a really sucky feeling...and one you'd think I'd be used to by now b/c I have always sort of felt this way throughout my life. Why do I always feel like I am missing something or for some reason like I am not good enough?? Feeling this way really makes it hard to change things...hard indeed.
But that's depressing and I already have to think about going to work today, which is depressing enough. So, let's not drag this out any more.
I'm excited to make more progress on the Lace Blouse and I'm excited about starting my Wedding Stole this weekend. Oh, btw, I have ultimately chosen Estonian Garden!! It's super pretty!
Oh, I'm also a member of Librarything.com now. My username is littlejezzie. If you're a member, send me a message sometime! I'm hooked on it, but I still don't have all of my books up on it yet. I have a lot of books here, but I know I have more hidden away somewhere, probably in the StL.
Sigh, I need to read more. I need to write more. Stupid knitting takes up all of my time. lol ^.^
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